I am really stressed out, damn. I have two jobs and currently studenting as a student, so my days are either working or falling behind on everything, I am really very bad at learning certain things so it takes me double or triple the average time to learn the Japanese. Vocabulary is crazy, Kanji is crazy.
I've been very confused and caught up by life for the last year or so, but I have something very clear now: I want to let someone know my feelings about them, and for the first time in forever I am nervous.
I was looking at old messages and I saw how normal I used to be, I don't know if I could communicate normally with people my age anymore. I wonder if it's from the not using english for a long time? I forget some things very quick. Sometimes I feel like heathcliff, maybe he came from the future, or the past.
Things to juggle as well:
Let a cool girl know I think she's really cool without coming off as a total weirdo
Youtube videos, my favorite thing and I can't find any time to do it GUH
Being a better member of the garden club: I really wanted to run for president but no way could I do that with things as they are
Writing, writing is very fun, even more so with html. (paradox of a web page, woah)
Gunspinning, I have really very terrible hand eye coordination so I have been spinning guns or drawing to try to fix that, I used to have a special class back in middle school for this exact thing
Eat healthier, I haven't been able to go to H-Mart in a few weeks and I am not a great cook outside of asian food
Remembering of course that I took up an interest in cooking from watching joji make top ramen. I used these videos and copied the recipe. that is why I cook asian food. Thank you for asking.
Been listening to KKB lately, I listened to them a lot in middle school.
I will figure my life out soon.
-quatro
Note that I write all these in one go with no editing, does it feel like a phone call? Would you prank call me? Please message me in detail with your response.
